The Death of Robin Williams

My painting of "Slipping into Darkness"

My painting of “Slipping into Darkness”

There was a point in my life when I was not connected to my environment and I felt society needed a complete overhaul.

It was the 70’s and I hitchhiked from Oregon to California. “Shaft” “Ventura Highway” and “Slippin’ into Darkness” were playing on the radio. Each song illustrated the piecing together of my experiences during this era. Those were the “sane” and fun songs to me. Even though my goals were met, I lived in a world afraid of my dreams, afraid of communication with my family and friends, and my dark days were amplified as I went without my medication.

My heart and loving healing thoughts go out to Robin Williams and his wife and children. Losing a parent to a successful suicide attempt in my 40’s, I sympathize with his situation. I am continually working through things in my head. Unanswered questions like, Why did they do it? Were they planning this all along? How could I have prevented it? Was I to blame? sink deep into my consciousness. I have experienced an emptiness which buries itself in the depths of my stomach and grows from the cold dark cliffs of their unfinished story. I live with an imbalance. Not because I tried to take my life at one time ( yet, that was part of it), but an imbalance that needs to be nurtured  and strengthened with therapy, doctors, and medication.  I hope that you will find peace and happiness in everything you do in life. It is a gift.  I found closure with my painting, “Slippin’ into Darkness.” Maybe you will too. Stay well.

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